Living in Memories

It's been almost 3 weeks here le. People and myself, how it's going? Fine?

Well really it's fine. I'm fine. More den fine. Too fine~ Bt i can't put d past behind. Haha. Funny how life owez goes on without waiting for u 2 put behind d past.

I dream every night bout d days i hve in Kuching. Dunstan, Alan, Terry, Amarprit, Mom, Dad even Kitty wei. Y kitty wei. Haha. Even d ppl i dun tlk wit appear in my dreams.

HEck, i even wake up tinkin i'm still In kuching and it's 3 weeks ored. Guess i'm still homesick. But i dun feel sick. Just missing d memories. How everything triggers a fragment of my memory. D talks i had with fui gang.

It was our final exam before SPM, Me, alan, Amarprit, Brahma were 'studying' for our sejarah test.

Four of us were sitting facing each other.

Me : Sejarah learn for wad? Yuan wang. I just onli remember Parameswara c a kancil kick his dog nia.

Alan : Really meh? I thgt kancil kick a wolf?

Prit : Y parameswara go c kancil kick dog wei? Sudenli walk 2 a tree and say i call dis place MELAKA!!

Me : How i noe ar wei? Maybe he tink everytin he own d ma. So he go where, he cn open one country. We go d trees outside our skul oso cn simply name our country

Prit : How u noe? U parameswara ar?

Me : I parameswara grandson u duno ar?

Brahma : U wan me SMack~~ u ar? (dat's owez his line) Somebody smack him?!

(Brahma and Alan and Amarprit hittin me wit sejarah notes)

Me : Lata i go Melaka wit Brahma, i get free tins u noe. Like i go d counter, say i parameswara grandson no nid pay.

(Continuos hitting)

Brahma : If u say dat, u better prepare sleep wit d dog dat kena hit by kancil ar?!

Alan : I tink is not d dog kena kicked by d kancil is parameswara, dat's y c d grandson so F**k up one

Me : Respect la wei. Actually parameswara full name i Parameswara Hee u noe.

(F4 Laugh non-stop, den teacher call us get ready exam Sejarah le)

Prit : How? All we learn was parameswara history.

Alan : Just write dat la. C if Mr. Law agrees wit d theory.

Me : Problem is d sejarah we learn, no parameswara inside wei!

(Continuos hitting)

Miss those times wei. Sob. How fui gangs just hang outside MBO planning wad our next move is. For half and hour. Sob. Sometimes just need my mom's voice to remind me dat i come from Kuching n a lot of people are supporting me no matter wad.

Next time baru add videos. Haha. Fui gangs d video.

' In melbourne, there's no fui-ness except me'

My new chapter

My first blog post here. Wait wait wait! Haven give introductions.

I'M OFFICIALLY IN MELBOURNE, AUSTRALIA!!!

Melbourne. The capital of Victoria state, Australia. It's Big. Haha. Remember in Kuching, we see Big roads, Big skyscraper, Big angmos, Farms. WE may tink it's fake o it's just d tv dat makes tins so beautiful. Trust me. They are all real and beautiful.

The city is full of life. It's summer here by the way, honestly, summer ain't that hot wei. The most here like 34 degrees? Dat's like kuching wei. Haha. Just want to try winter.
Since so long din blog le. Better update wad I did. Haha.

It was 5.30am when i woke up on a rainy morning on 18th January,2010. I din sleep much dat nite. Nervousness took over me. Ate my last breakfast, kolo mee~~ Miss it so much. Here kolo mee sucks!!
I was getting ready 2 cry dat tym, when i reached d airport. I'm gona lose sight of my family, friends, honey and my piano for like 6 months. It's a big step and i'm just letting it go bit by bit. Messages and phonecalls brought my tears to my eyes but i held it in. I'm a man wei. Haha.

I was about to say goodbye to my family when Ivonne and Chung Hung appeared. MAN! Were i happy 2 c dem. They made me realize dat my friends are still here waiting for me to come back. And made my tears disappear. Haha. Thanks Ivonne and Chung Hung!! I come back Kuching find u guys firz wei. Haha.

THere's a never rite tym 2 say goodbyes. Period. As i step through dat immigration counter, my sisters, my mom, my dad were just standing there waving goodbye, it made me think dat i have d most 幸福 family. And i hope dat when i come back, they are still there being who they are. Gonna miss u guys........

Well, like i said Angmo's are veli veli friendly. When we were waiting at the counter for check-in, it was a long queue, an Angmo Family talked to me and my aunt. Talked so long kok. Haha. In d plane, an angmo sat next to me. And she kept talkin to me. Haha. I even got her phone number. BLEKS~!! When i arrive at melbourne international Airport it was ored 2am. The winds were so cold. Yuan wang. SAy wad summer. Felt like winter wei. And i slept at 4.30am. Haha.

Over this past two weeks, i've bought a number. Haha. Long wei d number but because of super-smartness i manage to remember it. +6140425806704. Long wei. Haha. But i remember le. Wakakakakaa!!! Then erm........ OHOHOH!! I got a credit card!! WAKAKAAK!! I can drive and i got a credit card. I'm legally an adult. Next is get a girlfriend. Haha.
ERm... Still got, ohohohoh. The food here. HOI! Big wei. Like 3 times bigger den kuching. But expensive la. Hokkien mee 1 for $7.20. So currency exchange is RM21.60. Haha. Hokkien mee lo, Kuching wayyyyyyyyyyyy better.
D people here, u named it, here got. Chinese, Koreans, Japanese, Vietnamese, Indians, Angmos, Irish every race here la. But wad i really wana c is Koreans. Haha. YOPPOSEYO~~~ ANEONGHOSEYO!! Haha. Korean girls. mmmmmmmmmmmm~~~

My school. DIAO~~~~~~ Really la. Amazingly beautiful. Really breath-taking. Believe it or not it really looks like the photo.
Really looks like. Before i went there, i looked at the pictures and i was like:' Just a picture, wun be dat beautiful d la.' Then when i stepped into d school grounds: ' Never underestimate a picture.' The grass even looks d same. So smooth. Haha. My cousin kept saying it's a prestigous school. And till now i dun even noe wad is prestigous school. I guess is a beautiful school.
Melbourne's city veli veli city-ish. Not like Kuching City wei. Haiz. It's beautiful and all but it just doesn't hold those beautiful memories in Kuching City. Nothing can replace dat.

Jia you lo Russell!! I'm overseas le. Study hard. Don't want my mom to cry. DOn't want my dad to just gave those money away. Don't want my sisters to get laughed by people. Don't want my friends to look down on me. Like dey say, I'm gona be Jay Chou no.2! BUt i wana be Russell Hee where i'm be more famous den him.

Now still at my aunt hse. Boring wei. Haha. Haven't even made friends. Wait after CNY baru move in hostel. Haiz. SO long kok. Wait i at hostel baru take pics for u guys c. With my roommate i guess. Haha. There's so much tins to say kok. But if i'm d reader, i sienz liao wei. haha. Next time ba. Well~~ Hello Melbourne!

' I sang negaraku every morning. xP '

17th January 2010

It's today. It's finally here. 17th January,2010 a day before i depart. Depart to study. Sob. I really will cry. I'm just holding it up. I guess life moves on. After Form 5, sure got ppl go here n there. Me. I go Australia. Away from this multi-racial country. Sob.
Really gona miss everything. Every memory dat i have in Kuching.

My parents:
Thanks for supporting me. Mostly people hear wad their child saying dey wan music. Parents will stop dem from achieving dat dream. But not my parents. Dey are special. They were d first to support me in my dream. I don't want to disappoint dem. As every child's dream is to make their parent's proud. I'm one of d every child. With all those money u spent on me. Really wana repay dem. I'm gona b d best goddamn song-writer!!

F4 :
Amarprit! Brahma! ALan! Russell! We gona rock d world with Malaysian's F4!! HAha. 4 stupid but most interesting people form these group. 4 brothas. Sob. Amarprit ar, dont emo. We all gona separate one day. Everything has an end. But not for our friendship. It neva end. Even if we both are dead, we still talk crap in heaven rite? Haha. Brahma, i've onli known u for like 2 years, and u're like a brother 2 me liao. Alan ar, u gotta stop pangse-ing us liao wei. f4 ain't f4 wen there's onli f3. Get the math?
Terry, our f4 manager. His been my best-fren since form1 wei. I've gone through every girlfriend with him. Gone through every hard-kicking ass problems with him. But nothing seems to stand in the way between our brotherhood. Haha. Gonna miss u man. B on your own now man. there's no one to advise u no more.

Fui Gang:
There's a lot of ppl wei. Haha. Just wana say, BROTHERS SAY WAD!!!!! reply: WAD!!!! Haha. Love u guys wei. U guys made me wad i am today. I love u guys. I'm not gona stop saying i love u guys!! Sob. When i'm gone, remember 2 on you guys webcam ar! Den bring me to fui-gang outings!! I'm gona miss that d most wei. How we laugh and just stand in a circle for no reason. Shit!! I'm crying. I'm freaking crying just typing this post. I love u guys. Really do.Don't forget me as i never will forget u guys. Keep doing wad u guys do best, FUI!!!
Fui gang 就是fui gang!!!

BFF's :
My 4 Bff's Shirley, Angelina, Terry. Shirley was d first girl who was nice 2 me when i first enter form 1. First tallest girl i ever seen too. Haha. I'm gona miss u. U can do wadeva u wn. Just remember that there's always a mountain taller den another mountain. Zz. U were there to make me laugh. Were there wen i have problems. Haiz. Love u wei. Gona miss u too.
Angelina is my fren for 11 years.11 wei!! Best fren forever! She pinch, punch, scold me. But i still like her. Gona miss ur laughter. GOna miss your voice. Sob. Not gona miss your punches and pinches wei!!!
Terry, nigga man!!! Peace up!!! LBC!!! ROLL BACK TO THE CRIB!! I GOT SOME DOUGH HERE IN AUSTRALIA!! AND U BETE ROLL HERE!! IT"S MORPHINE TIME!!! Gona miss u man.

Dunstan:
Love ain't about girls wei. It's bout brothers too. Noe i got your back whenever u turn. Noe i catch u when u kena chase by polis. ZZz. Will miss u. Have confidence in yourself. Coz whenever u do tins, u owez will achieve it. I noe u can. Brothers say wad!!!! DUnstan: WAD!!! Love ya man.

Kitty :
Should keep u short. Haha. WIll miss kitty. K finiz.





No la. I'm bring dat key-chain there. And i'm gona kek all d girls say i got a kitty!! HAhaha. But if d girl i wan 2 kao. I wun show la. Wakakakakak~~~Remember ar. THis year don owez tink bout your boy le. SPM WEI!! After dat, can go with your boy le. Haha. Doggie not here, knt go kick him le. So i ask my dog brothers to help u. Just say MIAW! den dey come le. Haha. Miss ya wei. Take care.

I'm gona on my MSN everyday!! Gona on my facebook everyday!!! Will miss Kuching. Sob. My piano. My dog. My sisters. Take care!




Tears right now. My phone number give 2 my sisters le. So~~~ bete wac out wad u guys say. HAha. Wil sure come back find u guys d. June i tink. June come back!!! LENG ZAI LIAO!. DOn't care. If kitty say i still cute. I go bite her!
Go c facebook wei!!

' I love wad god gave me in my life. Parting is never easy. Let tears say goodbye
to all Fui Gangs. And my friends! '

The girl of My dreams

This few days, i've been laying on the couch watchin FullHouse. I watched it before, but my mom started watching it again. So i joined in. Haha. The drama ok la. Just, it's because 송혜교 is in it. Then slowly, slowly i fell in love with her. Strange how love works ain't it. Now i noe how girls siao DBSK. I know why girls siao Korean dramas.

Enjoy her pics wei~~ haha.

I liked d last pic best. Haha.

Next time, u C me. Marry to her. O someone that looks like her. Haha. 宋惠侨. I go korea next time liao. Don't want find Ji Hoo cause i'm not gay wei. Find her.

Now, i noe d meaning of 珍惜一切. Without going back to SMK Sungai Maong, I understand wad is boredom. Actually not boring la. Everyday got go out, at home wac drama. But I just miss Fui gang wei.

1. Miss the talking cocks.
2. Miss the don't-care-wad-teacher-is-talking-and-just-sit-in-a-circle group meeting. GOD!! I miss those times.
3. Miss How we ask Amarprit to loosen his Turban.
4. Miss how we laugh at Alan's jokes.
5. Miss how Dunstan pinch us.
6. Miss how Terry do his nigga stuff.
7. Miss how Brahma just being Brahma.
8. Miss how Ping Chen talk 'biology' with me.
9. Miss the constant misinterpretion and arguing between boys and girls of fui gang.
10. Last of all, Miss laughing together as Fui Gang.

That's onli the 10 of wad i miss. The list never ends. As 5 years with those fui Kias, taught me that fui gang 就是 fui gang. Plus i'm going oversea to study. Leaving the fui gangs. Behtahan ar. Australia how can have fui gang wei. Nothing will ever replace those fui Kias in my heart. Sob. Must rite a speech before i go Australia wei. So, save it for then.

Today, went out with my teacher. Mr. Ling. Just me and him, under the rain eating steamboat. Must try wei. Eating steamboat under the rain. Shuang ar~!! Like hot and cold at the same time. Thanks for the food, Mr.Ling!

Haha. This pic must put 2 times. Cause it's too cute~~~!!!

' Everything has an end. Happy o sad ending. Separating from Fui Gangs. Happy '

First post of This chapter.

First and foremost,

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!

2010 is really here. The separation of all form 5's. Ever since Melaka i've been going out till now. Going from Morning till 2am. Wao. Whole day went out. One thing i learn from all the going out is : Once u stepped out of the house, get ready to lose money.
Let's recap wad i done since 22nd, Dec.

22nd Dec - 27th Dec :
Melaka, The place where i lived with an Indian family for 6 days. Face it, not many chinese people gets to live with indians for 6 days rite? Haha. Everyday eat Indian food. I admit. Indian food ain't bad. They put a lot of herbs and spices. Cooking was 10/10. They even cook spaggethi nice. Then, the girls. Walao. I don't want say liao. Even Brahma, who is an indian thinks the chinese girls there. HOT WEI!!!. Now missing Melaka le. Haiz. Miss my 2 best friends. Devon and Tanush. Sob. These 2 little indian boys knw shut up one. But bo pian i like kids. Haha. So we played the whole time. Miss u guys wei!!!
I fallen in love with a girl in Melaka. She works in the F.O.S. at one of the malls. So everyday, I sure go there see her d. See her, check the clothes, see her do the cash machine, see her talk. Wao. Now i believe in love at first sight. Sadly, i gotta leave her. Nvm. Moving on is the best way to see more beautiful things. Haha.
Thanks Brahma's family for everything. I'm not racist. Really. Mayb to Malays only la. Haha. Love Christmas Eve. Where Me and Brahma kena snowed by fake snow. And the portugese people. Hot wei.

28th Dec :
Brahma went back Kuching first at 0800 hrs. We woke up at 0400am wei!!!! DIAO!!! First time in my 17years on Earth i woke up that early u know!! Bo pian. KL very far from Melaka. My flight back to Kuching was 1840 hours. SO......... I got to spend the whole day alone in an unfamiliar place. I took a bus down to KL sentral. Rm8 ok la. Then reach there. Duno where to go liao. Zzz. So kia kia lo. Walk walk walk walk. Then i rode a taxi to Midvalley MEGAMALL. So big and so many girls. Sob. I pinched myself to see if i was dreaming o not.
I thought of Kelvin that time, cause he said he was in KL. He said he was in MIdvalley. So zhun. So we met up lo. Fate jiu si fate la. We walked around lo. Exchange stories. His flight was 1940hours. So we went to LCCT together. Let me tell u. KL taxi drivers, are pro wei. They can basically enter NAscar if they want to. The taxi driver we hired, kena horned duno how many times wei.

29th - 30th Dec :
Came back from Melaka straight went to work. 30th Dec was Sg.Maong's form 5 science stream farewell dinner. Well, as like all dinners i played music again and i only got 2 days to practise. Zzz. So 29th rehearse whole day. 30th rehearse till afternoon. Tired wei and i just came back from plane nia. But 30th dinner was a blast. Took lots lots of Pics. Had fun. We F4 even got pictures. Haha. Wait i upload. Then after dinner, we went supper. Zzz. 2am came home. Straight sleep.

31st Dec :
Last day of 2009. Celebrated with friends lo. Went to Terry's house. Hang out. Watch Movies. Talk craps. Drank wine. Luckily wasn't drunk wei. Then countdown. Yea~~~~ 2010. 01-01-2010. 1.30am came home. Straight sleep.

1st Jan :
Fui gang gathering. Watched movie. Had fun. This maybe d last time i see them. Sob. Miss FUi gang la!!!!!!! Watched Vampire's assistant. Ok la. Not bad. Then we ate at Hui Sing. Then we went to Karaoke in Steph's house. Haha. Sing till no voice ar. But i had fun. Really had fun with fui gang. Cause Fui Gang Jiu shi Fui gang. And because of that, i love fui gang.

2nd Jan :
Went out with Kitty and Krystle. Finally can go out with kitty ho~~~ Had fun ma? I had fun le. Luckily din chase kitty round spring. I tahan chasing kitty u noe. We watched Avatar. Again le. Was tryin not to sleep, so din really watch tiok d movie. I got two seats = bed u noe. So must tahan again. I tahan eat oso. So hungry wei. But i only ate tiok chicken rice and kolo mee nia. Haiz. Kitty gave me her name as a farewell gift. Weird wei. Lata go there keep see KITTY. Nightmare nia. Haha. No la. Thanks la wei. Rm29.50 d tin bo. KITTY cost Rm29.50 bo. Haha. Funny wei. The story behind it. Will never forget Kitty d la. June i come back. Straight go chase u.

That's how i end 2009. Sadness and happiness all in one week. Weird huh? How everything in just a few days.
Thanks for the support on my new song, Leave. Mr. Kho Ping Chen is writing d lyrics. Guess what? If he manages to rite finiz. I'm gona sing. Really gona sing. So better wear some earplugs when u hear my songs. Haha. Now currently am writing a new one. Just need tuning kok. I'm gonna rite d lyrics for this new one.

' 14 days to go till i shed my tears. '

Adulthood

When i grow up, I wanna be....

Model.

Song-writer.

Singer.

Entertainer.

Lyricist.

Teacher.

Producer.

Director.

Actor.

Comedian.

Musician.

Dancer.

I swear that's all. That's the list of jobs i'm gonna take before i turn 100. Haha. I can cross out model. Cause just don't like the make-up they have to wear.

But the job i really want is song-writing. Just want people to listen to my songs. And see how music makes their smiles appears. I'm not saying every song is liked by everyone but music like people, have d ones we like to be with o the one we sienz to be with.

Today, finally can rest le. Went to spring 4 times le. In a week. Sienz liao wei. Tomorrow have to go again. Zzz. Ivonne planned a farewell-to-russell day. Appreciate dat. Just a few people get-together. Which makes me even more hard to let go of Kuching. Sob.

I made a song. Haha. So long din make song le. Spm finiz play play play play. But today got time make song. So make a song. Dis song is just a warm-up. Cause so long din make le ma. Haha. I called it 离开. Dis song reminds me of a girl saying goodbye to a boy. But they both not bf/gf. They just like each other. Just no chance to show their love. Writing song, must have a story d ma. O y call it 'music'?

I put d song named as 'LEAVE' in the playlist. New playlist. No 30-secs preview. Full. Gonna upload all my songs when i have tym. Ciao.

' When i open my pants, you can hear a loud THUD on the floor. '

Freedom.

Hahahahahaha. Freedom. It's funny how we tink. Before SPM. We were like:

FReedom. We Freaking need freedom. Study. Study everyday nia.

After SPm. I'm missing the days we complain we study too much. How we go toilets togather. How we talk in class. Haiz. It's over now. Really over. Over. Not going back to SMK Sungai Maong le. To tell u the truth i Don hate dat skul. It's d skul dat brought Fui gangs togather. Where we argue with teachers. The first Science 1 class to broke so many records ( Can say all bad records).

I guess. We just gona cherish all the times we had together.

Yesterday, went out wif irene. She stress wei. After SPM still stress. Haiz. Parent's problem. Don pressure your child. She's an adult now. Although she doesn't look like one But, her IC says she is la. Haha. We watched Princess and the frog. FUNNY WEI!!!

Ben Lai thought se kia movie don wac. Aite. FUnny. Me and terry laugh till someone said ssssssssssshhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.... Zzz. I rate it 8/10. 2 marks gone cause of d singing. Zzz. Watch movie shuldn't have singing wei.

Today, gona go spring again. Zzz. Ying Ying came back le!! Haha. SO gona go celebrate wif her lo. C if she got change lo. Haha. Change smaller? ERm...

HAiz. I'm gona miss F4 wei. Me, Brahma, Amarprit and Alan. F4 u noe. Wana noe we got F4 dis name?

One night, Brahma Message me at 12.04 a.m.

Brahma : Eh, Russell. U tink everyday me, u, alan, Amar go toilet. WE look like F4 o not?

WTF!!! Message me in the middle of d night asking me dis kind of tin.

Russell : Brahma ar? You knock your head ar? It's 12.06 and u message me dis kind of tin.

Brahma : Answer my question la!!! Dis is serious!!

Russell : OK. Sort of. I mean we are, Malaysia's F4. Indian, Punjabi and Chinese. SATU MALAYSIA!!!

Brahma: Ya. Ok. GO sleep la u!!

Russell: YOu know wad i'm gona do to u wen we go skul la ho?

He din reply afta dat. So nex day. He kena hit!! By me. But. Sob. Miss F4 wei.

' 32 days before i Miss Kuching. Miss Fui gangs. And most of all, Miss Kolo mee. '